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Friday, May 25, 2007
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15 years ago my aunt was told that she had cancer and only has six months to live. She took one treatment and said that was not living and she wasn't taking any more. She left it in God's hands. Last week she went back to the doctor and was told that it has spread through out her body and into her bones. She is one of the strongest people I know because I have never heard her complain about the condition of her body. She takes it as it comes. I would like to ask everyone to please remember ther in your prayers and also her family. I not sure how to ask any of you to pray, but let God lead you in your prayers. I know how I am praying. All my life I have known Elouise to be a strong Christian.
This is my dad's sister and everytime that I have talked to him this week he has teared up. This could be what brings him back to the mery of God. He went to a church service for the first time in almost 5 years this past Sunday. I was over joyed. He has been to 2 plays that I have been in, but I don't count that as church service.
I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend and a safe one!! Later.
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- Exams are over, two great services, new class, and still a to do. -
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Monday, May 21, 2007
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Wow. That was a long title, but I really wasn't sure what else to put. A lot has happended since the last time that I blogged. It is just getting it all striaght in my mind to get it accross. I was sadly disappointed with the bull riding. It was kinda slow. There where not nice looking cowboys there to occupy my time. Saturday I heading to Fries so I could see my mom on Mother's Day. Saturday evening we, my dad and me, went out with our good friend that are family Cat. and Stacy. We all went to church together when I lived at home. It was nice to see them as it aways is. Actually, at church we where consider the snob click. Not sure how people got that, but oh-well. Then I got all my hair cut off....again. I love it! and the best part is it only cost 5.00 to do it. Then I hung out with Duwayne and Timberly. It is only 7 weeks until the wedding. That is so hard to believe. On Sunday I got up and went to my mom's. I was there by 11:00. Quade and Chondra where there. I gave my mom her persent. She just loved it. I ask her a couple of months ago if she had a Bible. I feel that her having one was important so I wanted to make sure she had one. She didn't. So, I got her a nice Bible with "Momma" imprinted on the front of it. We had a fish fry with Mike's family and that was it. I don't like fish. So, I ate a lot of salad.
My exam week was not as exhausting as before. I didn't so as well as I would have hope on my exams, but I am getting there. I am starting to regain some ground. So, maybe this terms will improve. My new classes start today. I like the new schedule. So, I see how it works. I have said NO to any overtime at work, which will allow me to sleep more and not be as stressed because I only have a certain time to sleep. So, everything should go better or at least that is what I am counting on.
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- Bulls and Cowboys.....life couldn't get anybetter! -
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Friday, May 11, 2007
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Tonight is the night. I am heading to the bull riding. Well, actually, I'm working at the concession stands, but hey i'll get to see of it FREE! Anyway, I have to be good. I mean we are representing the Chruch! *giggle* *giggle*  I can't wait!!! Yeah!!! Well, I must go. I go have several things that I have to gt finished before. Later.
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- Trusting What I know -
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Thursday, May 10, 2007
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So, how is everyone? I am okay. I have one more day left at work and them a week off, which means that I can sleep for a full 8 hours with no interuptions. YEA!!!! Something really odd happened to me today at work and I am not sure that I like it at all! There is only one person in the world that I gave permission to this to me and it was not the guy over the warehouse at work. Actually, the only person who has ever done this well....lives several states away!
I was training the new guy, David, today. Micheal walked in and began to talk to us. He was talking aobut how he would work with anyone's schedule. He was telling David that. Then he looked at me and said "You can account for that, can't you" What is is referring to is about 10 weeks ago he ask me I wanted to take sometime off. I was during the time I was asking for all the prayer. I told him no that I was fine. I said it with a smile and as perky as normal. This morning he told me that he was still irritated with me that I refused him and he had to bring me in his office and talk to me again. He said he knew that I needed time off before he ask me and that is why he ask.! I AM NOT THAT READALBE!!!! or at least if I am I need to work on that. I hate having people read right through me. I don't want people to be able to look at me and tell if there is something wrong especially if they are not someone that is close to me. I would like to fight my battles between me and God and them put a smile of my face with the battle is raging. I want to walk through it with joy and looking so bad that people look at me and can tell what is wrong.
I am already getting "hard love" from someone, and I guess I just feel that I need to fight myself! Does that make sence to any of you all? Am I right? Am I rambleing?
Well, I have to go pick up drink. Working at Coke gets me a HUGE discount on drinks. Then I need to go clean my house and get ready to go home on Satruday because tomorrow night I am going to a bull riding thing. THERE WILL BE COWBOYS THERE!!!! *sighing* I love cowboys!!!
Anyway, I have to run. Later.
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- At last.....sleep -
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Tuesday, May 08, 2007
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There is not to much to blog about in my life right now. Actually there is nothing to blog about in my life. I did manage to get five hours of sleep after not having slept for about 30 some odd hours. Then I got caught up at work and came home at 7:30 to take a nap before class. I still feel wipe out. Actually, I think that I am more wiped out today than I was yesterday.
Anyway, my classes are about over, again. I have to rest of this week and then exams. I'm not to stressed out about these. They are not going to be that hard unless someone throws a curve ball at me. I have a paper due tomorrow that I have yet to start. So, I guess I need to get that finished.
I get next week off of work too. I can't wait. The only thing that I have pressing to do is what ever Brother Jared needs and then two exams. Michele and I are going to go look at wedding invitations stuff. I told her that if I was making them all by hand than I wanted at least a year to work on them. Than way I can do them a little at a time, take my time, and do a great job. Now, if I could just lit a fire under my mom to schedule the baby shower I need to make invitation for also. UMMMMMMMMMMMM............not going to happen.
Anyway, I really need to start working on this paper. I want to finish up my work day and go home!! Relax. Read a book. Then go back to sleep maybe even by 8:30 or sooner. It is funny because I would always give my uncle Ed and Aunt Louise a hard time about going to bed at 6:00 in the evening and getting up at 2:00 in the morning. Now, I understand why they went to bed so early!
Okay, I am ramble to prolong working on the paper. I REALLY have to go now.
Later. Love you all.
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- The day and the week are finally over!! -
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Friday, May 04, 2007
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I am so glad this week is over. It has been a week that God has spend giving me a major attitude adjustment with the help of Connie. I'm just glad that it is over. I really have nothing to blog about. I'm just waiting for Ashley to come home so I can go home. Oh, I should explain. I kept Landon tonight. I know I was suppose to start saying no, but who can say no to Landon? Beside it was nice just to chill and relax. I got to explore and figure out how to put this really cool music on my blog. If you keep listening there are like 50 some song that will play through. It is my favorites list. Well, not all of my favs, but some of them. If you would like to see a listing of them you can go to www.myspace.com/jessee84 The same song are on my myspace.
Well, I am perplexed about something. I have to open Sunday School on Sunday because Tim will not be there. So, I have a devotion that I know at least one other person needs to hear. Please don't ask how I know this, I just do. The devotion is more for me than anyone else. I am just afraid that the person will think they are being picked on. It is about how we must lean on God for all our needs and when we start leaning on yourself....life starts to fall apart. I really believe it is what God has given me because I have prayed for Him to change it and He hasn't. So, what is a girl to do?
Oh, I did tell my boss that I wasn't working late today if I had to come in at 3:00 am next week and not leave until 10:00. I am so not looking forward to next week because I will be working 55 hours and going to school full time. That is NOT going to be fun! Oh, well. I get the next week after that off for exams. So, I guess I'll catch up on my sleep then. I have slept the past few night, which was nice. It was needed.
Anyway. I have nothing to say. I'm getting tired. Peace out.
Love you all.
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- Did anyone know that a 2x4 hurts when it hits? -
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Wednesday, May 02, 2007
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I got hit very hard with one yesterday, and no, I don't mean that literally got hit with a board. It was sorta in human form instead of wood form. I have come to the conclusion, after about 2 months of sleepless nights, that it is time for me to turn in my cape. I would like to get through the next year with as much joy and sanity as possible. I want to be a light to people that I meet at school and work. I want to be kind and last week I was none to kind at work. I lost about twice in two days. God can't use me if I am being a stubborn, self will, strong headed, unwilling to change child. I think that I got all the adjectives. I am sure there are some to added. I have went as far as marking things off my schedule so that I can rest. It is starting to go like this......I really want to work camp this year and if I work camp then I can't teach VBS. If I am going home this weekend than I need this weekend at home to rest. I have actually wrote NO!!! on certain days on my calender to let me know that I am not to plan anything and if something gets planned, oh well, I will not be there because those are my days to chill and do as I want. I am ready to let myself out of the oppression that I have put me under. I want to do well in school because I don't want to look back and say I could have gotten better grades if I would have just had the time to study. I want to be a light to people and I can't do that if I am so stressed out with all that I have to do because if that is the case than the my life is revolving around me again and not around what I can do for God. Most of all, I don't want to have a complete nervous and mental break down. I was informed yesterday that is where I am heading if don't make some changes and if I got to that place there would be no understanding for me because I did it to myself. So, this is me saying that I am not going down that road. So, to those of you who told me to turn in my cape.....here it is. Enjoy. I am going to enjoy having my alone time with God again because life got so busy that I didn't have the time and when I did....I was to tired to do it. So, with my personal time with God back maybe I can start sleeping again at night. Now, I get to learn how to deal with the guilt of saying NO!.
I hope everyone is having a good day. Despite what that post sounded like.....I am having a really good day.
No longer superwoman is signing off now. Have a good day.
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